my love

my love,
i've gauged many a ways to tell you this,
none devoid of pain and anger,
yet the more i hold this back,
the more the guilt corrodes my soul
and heart,
left with no option but to tell you,
i know you love me,
hold no doubt that i love you as much,
but your love is misplaced,
not worth a wretch like me,
your time i have wasted,
now your feelings i scathe,
how i wish i could avoid this,
but am a wreck lost forever,
no dreams,
no hope,
displaced faith,
drowned to the dark depths,
only the dark angel knock i
await,
helpless i am,
like a sheep with no flock,
dinning in a wolves den,
yet so precious,
so beautiful,
are you in my world,
a world you were never meant to land,
a world reigned by darkness,
and tears that flow like streams down the mountains,
spitting and splattering pain gushing from all,
this world,my love,you don't deserve,
and so i bail you out on this,
and wish the lillies grow in your next world,
fate find you a hand,
that guides you to a bed of roses,
where smiles look down on you,
and leave me to burn my shrubs,
the withered pines i call hope,
wishing your story ends with happily ever after,
and mine just the 'End'